Excerpt: Struggle of life (کَشمَکَشِ زِندَگی)

 Excerpt: Struggle of life (کَشمَکَشِ زِندَگی)

Location: 34°7′45″N 74°50′32″E


Year's ago this verse came across with a deep meaning in it. "Agar ast-o-baazgeeram be ke chashme e aaz-daaram" which in literal sense means "if I give up on you , to whom I ll go"


This one took me seasons to paint, the base paint was put in summer, and then the writing was done in autumn and it took me winter to finish it off. This one probaby stayed longer with me than any other piece i ever painted, may be to impart one of the basic lessons. 


We don't and we can't control our lives even if we want to.This wasn't supposed to be this piece, i painted that base months ago and left it like that (those who paint will agree, we do that a lot), anyway it was supossed to have different verse from quran, even the base color was different, It was supposed to have a verse but "not this" but somehow everytime i would gather up some time to finsh it, i rather ended up leaving it like that and move to other canvas only to realise that  "jab tha woh na chahe kuch nai hota". So this verse came up when i was in dire need of one. So, no matter what we plan, this takes me back to 9 months where we all had  planned a lot, planned about going home, planned vacations, ceremonies, planned about our carreers,  job, getting a pet and what not! We all had planned but no one among us planned a pandemic. 


Only to realise, its Him, so take a step behind, sit and watch it all traveling in a destined direction, untying all the knots of path precisely and perfectly.

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